Moreover, the case being in i'm not too sure in i shld be feeling happy or not. Had a kind of mixed feeling when i ORDed. Well I'm pretty sure I shld be happy that i've been released from NS but still... There's this empty feeling... Well its probably due to the fact that i cant see my NS buddies as much as usual much less have contact. Thou there is always facebook to be in contact with, but that doesnt change the fact of how i felt.

I just have this feeling of how little friends i've actually made in NS. Most likely its because of how i bring myself to them ya. Serious, lame, un-socialable... i dunno, its how I felt when i look into the eyes of some of the guys back at flight. Regardless, this is on the bad side. On a lighter tone, i felt pride and honor in that there are those whom look up to me with respect. Despite my plump figure and not-so-fit physique, i've been able to earn some respect even among those whom are fitter and higher ranking than I am.

Not trying to boast myself here but the situation does remind me of a certain quote taught to me from a long time ago. At the moment i cant bring myself to rmb the exact phrase but it revolves around on how one brings one's self into existence to those around one's self. To be more exact would be the code which i have come to live by: "Respect yourself, Respect others"

well.. I guess that shld be enuff for the day. An awkward way to end an entry but still... this is where i shall end... Till the next time, cheers!